Too many nights have come and gone
Since last I closed my eyes
And dreamed in peaceful slumber
Of easy days gone by

The people whom I love the most
Don't understand my plight
Though they hear me scream in misery
And watch me fight the fight

Life's too hard to carry on
The Beast my constant friend
I can no longer face the pain
The torment I must end

When you read this letter dear
Please know it wasn't you
Who made me choose the easy way
There was nothing else I could do

I hope you never feel this pain
Nor any of our kids
I pray they never choose the out
That their tired old father did

So tonight with gun in hand
I'll give into the voice
That tells me life's not mine to live
I just don't have a choice

God forgive me!
 

© 2006, Mike Day